If I could travel back
to that moment
when I accepted that seductor’s invitation
and instead simply say,
“No thank you,”
saving me a world of hurt…
If I could go back
to that dinner in Africa
and not eat that amoeba
that stayed in my belly,
stealing my strength for decades…
If I could stop that car
from killing my sister,
or take my mother to the hospital sooner
so the doctor could fight
the pneumonia in time…
Of course I can revise my past actions in any now,
but what if I could also change the outcomes?
Mind swoons with the notion:
Maybe life would be lighter, easier.
I would be steadier, healthier,
less plagued by stress and fear.
I may not have met the Friend.
Inside, I ask…what is the truth?
The answer comes in a shower of love:
All the past is crucial,
none of it important.
It is but an eye blink
in a lifetime of seeing.
It is a firefly’s flash
among all the stars in the Milky Way.
It is a dew drop
on an orchid petal in a rainforest.
So instead of time-traveling back,
I journey inward now,
where all disappears
into the golden hue of You.