I will always want you
The Beloved says to me.
I think back to my mother who didn’t
When I was born
The lovers who did
But then left or I left them
The employers who did
But paid little and pushed hard
And then disappeared
The friends who I no longer see
The wine that once eased
But then hurt my head
The elaborate feasts
That stole my strength.
Even the movies that warmed my heart
One day became dull
And my dog, Alma, closed her eyes
And didn’t reopen them.
I will always want you.
That Love, from my true Friend,
With each thought
Breath and chant
Grows wider and broader
Takes me into It and Expands me
Until I am It
And we are everything
The oceans and continents
Sun, moon, stars
The winter grass silver in the night
The robin chirping at dawn
The cat curled warm against my side.
I will always want you
Is finally true.
Image shot along the Na Pali Coast, Kauai
He preparest a table before me, in the presence of mine enemies…
Yea though I walk through the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for Thou art with me.
We are so blessed!
Niki, such an interesting quote in relation to this subject. Truly, all of our loves do turn out to be our betrayers in a sense, once we know the true Love within. And then we see we were never betrayed at all but only loved all the way home. Thank you, dear soul.
Beautiful. Our lives go by in a progression of those we think will be the determining factors in our happiness and contentment and finally when the end of the line is reached we see the one we have marched towards and sought the entire time.
So true, Bob, and beautifully said. It is a progression, as year after year our loves fall away, revealing the One True Love. Thank you for joining in the conversation!
Look……a poet has unfolded…….Lesley’s own inner poet! I knew it was in there….it is so unique to your own Sound current lovely! So……thank you for the beauty you share as yes……….all outer things are transitory compared to the Great Bhakti Love of the inner……….and to know, deeply that this power always wants us no matter what…….WHEW!!! Everything changes with this experience….it is truly the best and only lasting thing when all else falls away. What a relief to know that it wants me even more than I want my outer desires. It is unfathomable to the Mind…..but such a soothing balm to the Soul. You WANT ME!!!! REALLY! after all I have done, been and am still doing?!?! YOU REALLY WANT ME! Yes……always and forever says this great power within. Love you sweetheart and am so grateful to be sharing this exquisite journey with you…….<3!
Thank you, Deb, for so completely getting this poem that came through to me. I am a bit tentative when I send out poetry because it is like a guitarist playing the piano for me, so accustomed I am to writing prose. But I simply ask what to post and this week was directed to this! Truly, that is my response to this ever-deepening love: You really want me? And the answer is always Yes! Yes! Yes!
This reminded me of the Master relating a chela dream wherein the Dream Master says to the chela “I’ve been right here all along”. Those words brought tears to my eyes, as does your poem. What great comfort to know the Beloved is with us, has always been with us and will always be with us, no matter where we are or what we do. Thank you for this beautiful contemplation.
Thank you, Marian, a beautiful memory of that statement. I am so happy that this offering touched you, as does yours touch me right now. We are so blessed by this love that is within.
Wow….wonderful…perfect….well said….thank you for your loving gift…
Beautiful photograph, Lesley, to help illustrate the love that surrounds and penetrates us, as your poem does.
It is so easy to understand that the Beloved loves others and so difficult to believe It’s love applies to ourselves as well. But how can it not? It makes no sense that any one person is an exception to Divine Law. But so often that’s not how it feels inside. Like your kitty, Arjuna, cast about and neglected for so long, I’m sure trusting completely in your love has come in stages, and distrust likely still manifests but the occasions are more and more rare as she begins to understand you will always be there to love and protect and care for her. You will always want her. Your poem is simply Divine. Thank you for sharing it. You play the guitar and piano with equal facility!
Thank you, Rudy, that is such a great and true analogy. We really do grow in our trust and love while that steady force awaits our recognition. And I so appreciate that you like my piano playing poetry. It is a very fun medium to play in. May the Tune sing on.
Lesley as I read your post upon awakening this morning I was immediately thrust into the story line, it was me, my story too, was being told. Everything you wrote was about the impermanence of things, everything was a contingent being or happening. We are taught to lay our treasures, hope and dreams on these outward things and finally at some point in time, some incarnation we are brought to that point where we catch a glimpse of The Master who holds that key that will take us inward and upward, not outward and downward and then and only then as you wrote, it is finally true, we have found that which is and will always be and its love not contingent but forever expanding as it engulfs us and brings us home! Thank you for this channeling and also the backdrop of Na Pali Coast in Kavai, what a beautiful place to walk and contemplate these words you have channeled to us all!
Michael, I can hear the great Divine flow coursing through you in the vibration of your comment. Thank you for so beautifully fleshing out what the poem first brought to me. You are such an alive and awake soul and I’m grateful to be walking this beautiful path with you.
Thank you so much Lesley for your wonderful reply concerning my comments on your post. It is also my blessing to know and be walking this beautiful path with you!
Lesley, please never doubt that the Poet resides in you and expresses Truth and Light through you, lest you might deprive us of the beauty of your insights. Namaste.
Thank you, Papa Oso. I am happy to have conversed with you on Twitter today and to be following up with you here. And how kind of your to say that. I do my best to open and let the Love flow through. It is a great joy for me.
Thank you for this Lesley. Your poem so beautifully illustrates to me the emptying of our cups as we realise and detach from our illusions of what love is, as a precursor to being filled with the one true love. What a journey to fully realise His love. I really felt the breadth and expansion you conveyed in the second verse. The vastness of the universe within, yet no tiny detail untouched by His love. Great photo too. Walking into the darkness of the wooded majestic mountains, yet alongside the expanse of the clear blue ocean. Thank you for sharing your devotion.
Thank you, Chloe. What you say is so beautiful. Truly, as you say, the universe within is vast, with no detail untouched by His love. I will take that with me today. 🙂
“I will always want you is finally true”. Nothing more to say. Except thank you for your lovely writing.
Thank you, Liza, for reading and for your lovely comments.